Kiwiana Girl Tells All

So far 2017 has been really tough on me.  The way I struggled over New Year’s should have been a sign, but I went to the doctor’s and they said it was a rough time of year and that I'll get through it.  Which at the time I could see there was a lot going on and so I just put one foot in front of the other and just focused on getting through each day as best I could. I don’t like to show my emotions or asking friends for help, as I know everyone has their own problems and battles and it’s hard for anyone to really understand the depths of someone’s situation. A few years back I felt like I was in a good head space, I was ready to start living and putting myself out there to find my life time partner.  But looking back now, I still didn’t love myself and the saying goes “If you can’t love yourself, how the hell are you going to be able to love someone else.”  And this is so true… As I have never loved me.  I know how to love my children, my parents and all my close friends a