Kiwiana Girl Tells All

Just watched Season 2, Episode 10 of Californication and it made me cry. I want to be a female version of Hank Moody or even Charlie Runkle.  Woman falling at your feet, it may not lead to love with any of them, as they already love someone they can't have; but just think of the fun.  Deep down, I suppose it's a lonely world...but it would be nice to be in their shoes and feel wanted, even if it's only for your body.  So, no I can't be a Hank Moody even if I wanted too, because I don't have sex appeal, the confidence or the gift of the gab.  And Charlie Runkle, he's just a lucky/unlucky son of gun and luck is not something that I have been privileged with, all men avoid men like I have the plague, Nah...just ugly. The few week's back, I wrote about having the best of both worlds, but I was really just on a stupid high.  Yes, it's great to have a Friends with Benefits...but it's only great if it happens both ways and regularly.  I get so disapp