Farewell 2016

It’s time to finally say good bye to ‘2016’.

It definitely had its ups and downs for everyone around the world.

Though I tried even harder again this year to achieve what I wanted to achieve in ‘2015’, I’m still in the same place emotionally and personally.

I have made some amazing new friends, gained new experiences and did everything in my power to get over my self-doubt, to love myself and my life.

But it’s less than two hours till ‘2017’ starts and here I am doing the same thing I did last year.  

Stuck at home, hating my life and myself… and feeling like the end of ‘2016’ is just a replay of my ‘2015’ ending.I tried hard to open up this year, make new friends and to get out of my own head.  

But all my hard work has gone down the drain, because I never get time away from my daughter and I feel by  the time I have no kids under my feet, I’ll also have no friends.

I love my daughter, but I find where I am in my life is not where I want it to be and it’s not like I want to be pointing the finger at her, but she does have this habit of getting under my skin and making my head spin to the point of destruction.

I’m also feeling jealous of everyone that has someone to see the New Year in with.  I can’t remember the last time I saw a New Year with someone that I could kiss and hug and say Happy New Year too.  I’m not just referring to a special person, though that would be nice… but just someone.

So with a very heavy heart and an even heavier head… 

I do wish everyone a great Happy New Year.

I’m hoping that when I wake up in 2017, I feel better and I have my get up and go Mojo back.

See you all next year.